Settling In

Well, I've just about gotten this place set up all cozy like and all. I've been somewhat killin it at poker of late. NOT! I was on this rampage where I was stealing all kinds of money off the poker bloggers thru the weekly online home games. I was killing it at stars on their low limit rebuy tourneys for 5 and 3 dollars. Then I ran into a 5 dollar rebuy and just went nuts, I killed my roll there but had won entry into the weekly million tourney. Needless to say I lasted all of 20 minutes. So stupid, can you say pocket 8's with a ten on the board? Ohh.. Kayyy. Nice one Tommy. Knew I should have just cashed out that entry for tourney dollars. Oh well.

So I head back to full tilt and have just been getting abused there too. I've lost every token race I've gotten into like 6 in a row, I've not made a cash in any mtt I've been in for a week and I'm suckin hind teat. I've managed to win a sng and cash in another to keep my bankroll entact but damn this shit is starting to piss me off. I mean I realize my style of poker does lend itself to some big variance, but I cannot learn a new style. I do try to learn from my mistakes, I like to try and come here to discuss them. For instance, last night I was in a 5 dollah tourney on ft and was doing great, I was 12 of 65. Somehow I go out in 63 when cash was at 54. I mean, really. Do I need to explain my hand selection to you, for you to realize that I'm just a dumbass sometimes? All I had to do was sit there and fold everything till I got Jacks or better and play them cautiously. Instead I go trying to play some hands out, chase some VERY good draws with 15+ outs only to relieve myself of 5 bucks so close to making a couple. Very frustrating. I know you've felt the same way, its my understanding that we all have.

Whether or not I will be able to continue on and make that mark I so desperately want to make is beyond me. I am to the point of saying to hell with it all, but fuck it, I'll keep on keeping on. And I've now gotten a new place to blog bout it, so thats somewhat cool. I have some crazy plans for the next year, hopefully will make them all come about. Will have fun trying to get there!