Settling on a Course of Axchun

Well, having all this free time to reflect upon things and play freerolls, I'm begining to hone my donkament skills even further yet, I'm considering how exactly to proceed in poker.

I have no doubt as to my abilities in pokah, I know I've got the skill set to suck it out with the best of them. Its my feeling that I've never actually taken that step and put any true faith into my abilities. Make any sense? Doubtful. Well what I mean is I have never put my money where my mouth is. I've cashed big three times this last year, each time removing all my winnings save for a hundred or so, then played that carelessly in somewhat small chunks which reletively speaking were too large to be playing with, ie: 24+2 tourneys via token races etc. Once when I had a 2k cash, I cashed 1k and kept in 1k and burned it on 5 tourneys thinking that "this was it, the time was now!" LOL!!! It was around wsop time and I was desperatly trying to get in. Played all kinds of satelites on ft to include the 100 seat guarrantee which I bought in directly for. Needless to say I donked that k off in about 4 weeks. Well here was my tourney selection for that. $500 100 seat guarrantee, 200+16 sunday tourney x2, 100+10 sat tourney x2, so in fact I donked 1.1k in 1 a month.

But enough of that! Right now, I've been working on the becoming a better student of the game, stumbled upon Cardrunners, been attempting to get a handle on the spew of information on 2+2. Jebus, there is too much information there! But some good stuff! Some shit too I'd imagine. I don't necessarily wish to screw with my game as I feel it is somewhat good in the area of donkaments. I do see a very strong need to develope a cash game. So this is where I think I am going. But I feel I need to work on my bankroll by truly putting forth some serious efforts on some sng's.

I am also certainly feel a need to join up with cardrunners. Not so much that I feel they are a get rich thru poker scheme, but I do feel like they've got an awesome training tool and I wish to utilize it to improve my game!

All in all, I'm enjoying my time spent away from the day to day grind of TPP and figuring out the course of axchun that I will be taking when I decide to push forward again. Where I'll be playing, Full Tilt? PokerStars? UltimateBet? The new Cake Poker? Not sure. I would love to split two deposits between Stars and FT I think, but I've made a good amount of money on UB as well. But I'm thinking I want to put all my hopes into one site for the time being and I think the site should be the one with the most axchun, probably stars. Anyone have any ideas where I should go play? Doubtful too many are even reading.. Much less reading this far into a post.

Well take er ez, I'll be back before ya know it. Hopefully kickin it with the big boys before ya know it!